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Thursday, December 1st, 2005
12:51 pm - 32 down, 18 to go

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(Forgot Arkanthaw earlier)

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Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
8:52 pm - Peanut butter meme time!
Yoinked one of these from a couple people, the other from a couple others. Do one, do both, do neither. Except for the neither part. In fact, make it more interesting...do both, but don't tell anyone which one's real or which isn't.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.

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Sunday, November 27th, 2005
12:40 am - It's okay if you don't know everything
Under a week until I fail the LSAT. Well...not entirely true. No such thing as failing it, per se. Under a week until I don't do well enough on the LSAT. I'd be satisfied if I could raise my score about 11 points. That doesn't sound like a whole lot, but the possible scores range from 120 to 180, so given the 60 point range, 11 points is kind of a lot.

Anyone else think it's fucking stupid that there were lines outside of stores forming overnight for black Friday sales and that people got stampeded over a lousy fucking "bargain deal pri$ce!1!!lolzOMG!!!11!!@!" I'm glad people enjoy Christmas. Really. I am. When I was little, I was especially jealous of the kids who celebrated both Christmas AND Hannukah. But this fucking nonstop commercial bullshit that's become associated with it must go. Also? Christmas season should be contained to December, or at the very least, AFTER Thanksgiving. Christmas music shouldn't be playing, and there shouldn't be Christmas decorations up, or the Santa throne in the mall BEFORE HALLOWEEN. /rant

I did absolutely nothing today. I was even invited out to go do stuff with a few different people. Granted, one set of those was my parents, and another was my brother and his friends. I turned everyone down, including my own friends. Why? Because I'm a lazy asshole. I didn't even do anything constructive with my time, like devise methods of world domination, or, y'know, working on raising my LSAT score 11 points. "What, then, DID you do today, Paul?" I hear you ask, hypothetically. I wasted a day, as I often do. I watched some TV, played some FFVI, and dinked around online, in varying order. That was really about it.

I really wish I was anywhere else.

I really wish I was anyone else.

Why you gotta act like you know when you don't know?

current mood: blah

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Thursday, November 24th, 2005
1:51 am - Oh yeah...
Also, Happy Thanksgiving unto you all.

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12:39 am - No Day But Today
Wow. So original. I know. But, as I'm sure you can guess, I just saw the film version of Rent. It was really good; it reminded me of why I loved the play so much back when I saw it.

I love the message, the whole idea of "No day but today." I only wish I was brave enough to live up to it, and/or that it wasn't so difficult to do so. But life kind of gets in the way of that, doesn't it? You can't just decide to have good things happen to you and then they do, no matter how hard you work for it. You have to keep in mind the feelings/wants/desires of other people, because almost certainly, they become involved somehow.

Anyway, on a more review-ish note, all of the acting in the movie was fantastic; I was surprised by Rosario Dawson. She's not the best singer ever, but she carried the tunes well, and gave a very enjoyable performance. Jesse Martin, Taye Diggs, and Idina Menzel were as marvelous as you would expect - hell, everyone was. Angel's death was perhaps done even better in the film than on stage, as it's drawn out longer, and you're able to see and feel the anguish more than you can while watching the play. Yes, some of the songs are done differently, or left out, and yes, some of what was sung in the play is spoken in the film, but Christopher Columbus made it work. The cinematography, sets, and costumes were fantastic. I guess what I'm trying to say is: go see it.

Do you ever find that you really want to say something to someone, but you just can't?

I find myself feeling increasingly alone here.

Under two weeks until the LSAT.

It's snowing tonight.

current mood: pensive

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Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
1:40 pm - More later. But for now, your moment of zen.
LiveJournal Username
So, what's your name, Jedi?
I see. What's your affiliation?
Good, good. What's your lightsaber color?
Finally, what's your fighting tactic most likely to be?
The Sith Lord who hunts all Jedi: thomisina
The Jedi Master who leads you into battle: fieryflame
The Leader of the Wookies: lightmagician
The One that dies in the first 20 minutes: tothesoundof
The Traitor who misleads you all: winnie_the_pug
Survivor #1skaryma
Survivor #2daphna
The odds you'll survive this are:
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Gemini Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

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Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
11:31 am - Back from the dead?
The best thing about the theatre I'm presently sitting in the middle of tech running a sound board for is that there's an ethernet connection in the booth. So here I am, after months of radio silence. A lot has happened. A lot hasn't. Most of what has really isn't significant.

But here I find myself, having been in the theatre for a few hours already, and still having played all of one cue. But hey...that's tech for you.

I really don't have a lot to say. Do I ever? I babble a lot, but do I ever really say anything? I could go on about all the trivial little things that have happened in the months I haven't posted, but really, why? I'm sure if I actually start updating on a regular basis again, there'll be plenty of that.

In terms of not-so trivial, my grandpa is dying. Slowly. Brain tumor. Don't know how long he has, but my guess wouldn't be more than a few months. He's been getting visibly worse week to week. He turns 94 on Sunday.

My cousin, Rebecca, who's a month or two older than me, set a date for her wedding. It'll be at the beginning of September.

I think I've been depressed for quite a while now, and that's not really changing.

I feel out of place wherever I go. I feel stuck.

I feel a lot. I feel nothing.

I just got the new Coldplay CD the other day. I love it. I'm going to share with you the lyrics to the hidden track, Kingdom Come. It's a gorgeous song.

Kingdom Come

Steel my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time, my time has come
Let me in, unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you’ll come and set me free
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing

And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
Say you’ll come and set me free
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me
Just say you’ll wait, you’ll wait for me

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Thursday, April 28th, 2005
2:04 am - Zombies!
So bizarre!

Cambodian Troops Quarantine Quan'sul

There has been a small outbreak of “zombism” in a small town near the border of Laos in North-Eastern Cambodia.

The culprit was discovered to be mosquitoes native to that region carrying a new strain of Malaria which thus far has a 100 percent mortality rating killing victims in fewer than 2 days.

After death, this virus is able to restart the heart of it’s victim for up to two hours after the initial demise of the person where the individual behaves in extremely violent ways from what is believe to be a combination of brain damage and a chemical released into blood during “resurrection.”

Cambodian officials say that the outbreak has been contained and the public has no need to worry.

General Ary Serey had this to say, "We have obtained samples of this new virus and plan to learn how it starts the heart and other major organs of the deceased. We intend to use this to increase the quality of life for all."

US Secretary of State Condoleeza Rice opposed the plan saying that the Cambodian government holds a great biological weapon and should destroy it immediately. Cambodian officials have yet to comment.

A United Nations team will be dispatched to Cambodia to confirm the safety of biological research in Cambodia.

current mood: Say what?

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Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
5:08 am - For Nicole...
...who's going to kill me. From IMs shortly before 5 am:

Nicole: hahahaha... I hadn't seen Amy's away message :D
Me: Really?
Me: She uses it a lot
Nicole: really?
Nicole: lol
Me: Yup
Nicole: I'm flattered
Me: No, you're insane.
Nicole: better than you using my out-of-context quotes ^__^
Me: Bwahahahahahahaha
Nicole: well, yes, that too
Me: You know you love it
Nicole: *blush*
Nicole: perhaps

current mood: Wonky

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Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
2:51 am - A meme that maybe, like, two of you will get.
Dr. Isaiah Dylan - GE CEO:
You are one of the most powerful lunatics on CR!
"Gee, Brain, what are we going to do
tonight?" "The same thing we do
every night, Pinky: Try to take over the

Which CrossRoads Character Are You?
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current mood: amused

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Monday, March 21st, 2005
4:45 pm - No comment.

The Usurper

You scored 55% Cardinal, 20% Monk, 32% Lady, and 54% Knight!
You have both the lust for war of the Knight and the wicked morals of the Cardinal. You are truly a dangerous one who likes power and will stop at nothing to get it. If the king dares stand in the way of your ambitions you will have no qualms about removing him from the throne and placing yourself there instead.

You scored high as both the Knight and the Cardinal. You can try again to get a more precise description of either the Cardinal or the Knight, or you can be happy that you're an individual.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender

You scored higher than 84%
on Cardinal

You scored higher than 5%
on Monk

You scored higher than 19%
on Lady

You scored higher than 61%
on Knight

Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on Ok Cupid

current mood: Impassive

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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
3:42 am - This is why IQ testing should be required before people are allowed to breed
Got this link off of 8-Bit Theater, and thought I'd share the story with you.

Teens Leaping For Thrills In 'Garage Jumping' Trend

POSTED: 2:52 pm EST February 28, 2005
UPDATED: 6:29 pm EST March 1, 2005

ORLANDO, Fla. -- Teenagers in Orlando, Fla., are leaping between 80-foot high public parking garages in a new trend called "garage jumping," according to a Local 6 News investigation.

Local 6 News reported that the thrill seekers are vaulting themselves between garages in downtown Orlando.

Tim Bargfrede told Local 6 News that he was following friends when he attempted to garage jump and did not make it to the other side. Bargfrede fell six stories and was knocked unconscious on impact.

"I just didn't make it," Bargfrede said.

Bargfrede survived the 80-foot fall but was injured.

"The first time I came to the garage after my son's accident, I looked over and I just about broke out in tears," the boy's father Tim Bargfrede said. "I can't believe he actually survived. He looked like he was near death."

"He (Bargfrede) is not he first person, he is not the second person, there have been four or five other individuals before him that did this," family's attorney Vincent D'Assaro said.

The city of Orlando owns one of the downtown parking lots next to a private parking garage owned by Orlando Tower LP, according to Local 6 News.

Orlando Parking Garage Director Samuel Vennero admitted he was aware of at least one other incident where a garage jumper didn't make it to the other side.

"I don't think we recognized it before as a danger," Vennero said.

There are no safety fences in place on the parking garage.

D'Assaro is filing a lawsuit against the city of Orlando and the private garage owner for making little effort to correct a potential deadly risk.

"There was a very, very short length of fence that was completely ineffective in preventing this from happening," D'Assaro said.

Orlando Tower LP, the private parking lot owner, refused to comment about their responsibility, according to the report.

Since Bargfrede fell, the City of Orlando erected a partial fence but there's still room for someone to take a dangerous dive.

The family says that's not good enough and that both garages need to take responsibility before a garage jumper loses his life.

current mood: Stupid people suck

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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
10:43 pm - "Move Aside and Let the Man go Through"
Not much new, really, although I finally got out a little bit. Friday the preview show was cancelled because of weather, so I got an extra half hour of sleep, and we spent the day rehearsing more instead. The director needed to work a bit later than most of the rest of us, but had said we should all go out to dinner afterwards. So I was hanging out in the green room, waiting for them to come get me, because when he got back, he wanted to give notes to the actors. The stage manager, who was going to meet up with us later had been leaving before everyone else because she needed to buy a new phone first, but she told everyone I was in the green room and not to leave without me. Guess what? They left without me. Fortunately, someone who wasn't going and hadn't left yet knew where they were headed, so I was able to meet up with them. After dinner we went and got S'mores at Cosi's, and the waiter liked us so much that he "forgot" to put the s'mores on the bill, and bought them for us. So we gave him a huge tip, plus a couple of comps to the show. Saturday we had a preview as well as our official opening...both went pretty well. There was a reception after the opening...I hate those kinds of things, but I hung out through it, because then we all went out, grabbed a drink, and then met up with one of the underage cast members and his family at a restaurant and had dinner. Many of the people involved in the show are really cool, but I'm not so sure many of them like me that much. Anyway...no show again until this Friday. Last night I hung out a little with alsowik and some of his crew, and we watched Matchstick Men. And that...that's pretty much been it. Whee.

And so I leave you with these memes:
You're a Slytherclaw!: By nature you are rational
and a realist. Some people may call you cynical
and elitist but this doesn't matter to you. You
don't depend on other people's opinions to
determine how you live your life. You are
generally cautious and prefer to weigh the
consequences before you act. In conflicts you
prefer to remain neutral and aloof. You value
intelligence and you are a natural diplomat,
you can convince people to do what you want
them to do. Your weakness is that you sometimes
think more with your head than with your heart
and it leads to isolation. With the
intelligence of a Ravenclaw and the subtlety of
a Slytherin you will be sure to achieve all
your goals!

Which Mix of the Hogwarts Houses are You?
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What Is Your Battle Cry?

Sprinting across the desert, attacking with a bladed baseball bat, cometh Blacksmithtony! And he gives a gutteral scream:

"For the love of carnage and discord, I shall discombobulate the entire world!!"

Find out!
Enter username:
Are you a girl, or a guy ?

created by beatings : powered by monkeys

How cute are you?
Favourite Color
You are: Not only cute, but sexy as hell. What's your number, baby?
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current mood: Move aside!

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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
6:25 pm - Oscar predictions
NOTE: This is who I think WILL win, not necessarily who SHOULD win.

Picture: "Million Dollar Baby"

Director: Clint Eastwood, "Million Dollar Baby"

Actor: Jamie Foxx, "Ray." (Anyone else find it ridiculous Paul Giamatti wasn't nominated here?)

Actress: Annette Bening, "Being Julia"

Supporting Actor: Morgan Freeman, "Million Dollar Baby"

Supporting Actress: Cate Blanchett, "The Aviator"

Writing (Adapted Screenplay): Paul Haggis, "Million Dollar Baby"

Writing (Original Screenplay): Charlie Kaufman, Michel Gondry and Pierre Bismuth, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"

Foreign Film: "The Chorus (Les Choristes)" (France) (Should've been House of Flying Daggers)

Animated Feature Film: "The Incredibles"

Animated Short Film: "Gopher Broke"

Live Action Short Film: "Little Terrorist"

Documentary: "Super Size Me"

Documentary Short Subject: "Autism Is a World"

Art Direction: "The Phantom of the Opera"

Cinematography: "House of Flying Daggers"

Film Editing: "Million Dollar Baby" (I will cry if this goes to "The Aviator")

Costume Design: "Finding Neverland"

Makeup: "Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events"

Original Score: "Finding Neverland"

Original Song: "Learn To Be Lonely" from "The Phantom of the Opera"

Sound Editing: "Spider-Man 2"

Sound Mixing: "Ray"

Visual Effects: "Spider-Man 2"

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Thursday, February 24th, 2005
2:37 am
Nothing new the past couple days, and nothing different, either. Final dress and another run of the show tomorrow, designer run of a different show after it, production meeting after that, previews Friday and Saturday matinee, opening Saturday evening.

For now, stupid memes.

Yoinked from _libby
If only this were remotely true....

What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
Flirting Skill Level - 93%
Kissing Skill Level - 20%
Cudding Skill Level - 1%
Sex Skill Level - 92%
Why They Love You You are very sweet.
Why They Hate You You are too sexy.
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...well, apart from the 1% cuddling and 20% kissing, that is.

Yoinked from several:
Pick one the one out of each of these pairs that you think describes me best. Then, put this in your journal and see what people think of you.

dominant or submissive
logical or intuitive
social or loner
kinky or vanilla
cute or sophisticated
kitten or puppy
warm flannel sheets or sleek satin
leader or follower
quiet or talkative
spontaneous or planned

current mood: Meh.

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Monday, February 21st, 2005
11:19 pm - Same old, same old...another long, whiny, rambling post that doesn't matter.
Monday, Feb. 21, 10:02 am. There have been too many mornings, too many 5 hour nights, too many long days. Today's going to be another long one...probably a 13 or 14 hour work day. Been here for an hour so far. Don't know why they made my call so early...I've literally done nothing thus far. Doesn't look like I'll be doing anything for another half hour or so, either. Could be wrong about that. Saturday was a 12+ hour day. Tech from 8-12, changeover-ish stuff until 1, lunch break, then sat around the lobby doing some sound design stuff before a designer run for that show at 3:30. Run was followed by production meeting, which was followed by a meeting one-on-one with the director, which finished at 8:15. The upside to this, however, was that she liked what I have so far, so I'm at least done with the transitions, which I was the most worried about, and make up the majority of the cues. I don't know why I was starting to stress about it so much; I always work best under pressure, and there are still a few weeks before my design is due, anyway. I usually have less time to do an entire design to begin with. I'm a tense person. I wish I wasn't. My jaw, neck, shoulders, back, etc. also wish I wasn't. The worst part is that I'm aware of how stupid it is, and tend to make a conscious effort to relax - it tends to fail. My jaw in particular has of late been getting tighter than ever before...is it possible I'm developing TMJ? I should find out. My body really fucking hurts.

I need to call Brian. He IMed me on Saturday saying "I've got a great story involving cosmic irony and the human condition. Specifically ours. Lots of laughs. :-)" Yeahhhhh...we laugh at us a lot. We have more than enough fodder.

I don't know what I want anymore. I'm not even sure I know who I am anymore. I was talking with an old high school friend, Lauren, the other day. We're both back living at home. We're both struggling with jobs - me because I'll never have such a thing as job security and don't get paid enough and have stuff for now but won't pretty soon and need to find more jobs, and her because she hates the job she has now and is having lots of trouble finding a different one. We both thought it'd be different, somehow, after college. I guess we were both a bit naive. I went to this jewelry show with my mom yesterday, to get a new gold quartz ring to replace the lost one (the lost one was my 18th birthday present. The replacement is my birthday gift this year). After we did that, I was helping her find something for herself. I chose the wrong profession; I have expensive taste. Not just with jewelry. I have good taste, in general, I think, but good taste and expensive taste seem to go hand in hand rather regularly. I will never have the money to match my taste, my love of travel. Hell, right now I wish I had enough money to be able to go out and live on my own. In a sense I do. I have plenty saved up. But that would run out eventually. *le sigh* Oh well. Living at home at least means that I'm able to spend the money to go up to NY as often as I do, and to treat friends to dinner and such, and to buy DVDs here and there, and still have money left over to put into savings. But living at home is also driving me fucking nuts. I love my parents. It's just hard to go back to living with them after being away for four years. Even if I do wind up just staying around D.C. (which I will at least through sometime in May, as I'm taking those classes at the Studio), it'd be nice to have my own place. To have privacy and my own life. I have few friends left in this area, and I really don't see the ones who are here at all. Living at home doesn't exactly make it easy to meet new people. And it means that my friends who live out around Baltimore tend to want me to visit them rather than vice versa, which isn't a huge deal, but gets to be a pain in the ass after a while.

I'm lonely, I guess. In the relationship sense, yes, but also just in general. I need more friends here. Or I need to move to NY. But, again, that's a vicious circle. It just keeps going and going. That's what makes it vicious. And a circle (Yeah, I'm going to keep quoting that until someone figures out what it's from). At least, in theory, I'll be having visitors during SLC's spring break (right, blackdeathdenia and brassidiot? Anyone else want to come? Please?).

I sometimes wonder which people I think are my friends aren't. I sometimes doubt that anyone really likes me or cares about me. That maybe I'm just that obnoxious asshole that everyone feels sorry for, but wishes would go away. I know it's stupid. I know most of the time there's nothing to worry about, that it's just paranoia. But it's there, nevertheless. And sometimes I'm surprised by who is and isn't. Who stays in touch and who doesn't. I wish I was better at keeping in touch. I wish I wasn't such a lazy asshole. I keep telling myself that I can change that, that I will change. But I don't.

4:05 pm. Well, got busy-ish for a while. We've been running through the show, so I've been either in the pit or backstage, working the turntable and the doors and such. Also been reading Musashi, from which the quote of the day comes: "'Just a little more.' How easy to say, but how difficult to achieve! For 'just a little more' is what distinguishes the victorious sword from the vanquished." I want to be able to achieve "just a little more."

Went out to lunch with the actors. They get until 5, though, whereas I have to go back to work in a few minutes.


11:20 pm now. It was a long fucking day. Thankfully, I don't need to be in until 1:30 tomorrow...so it'll just be a 9 or 10 hour day. Whee.

current mood: blah

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Saturday, February 19th, 2005
12:10 am - More pointlessness.
iPod/iTunes Survey

How many total songs?: 6058 (many, many more if I ever get around to putting my CDs on here...but that'd also change other answers, too, I assume, so it's a moot point)

Sort by Song Title - first and last?

First: ...Not Forever - Tsunami Bomb
Last: Zoot Suit Riot - Cherry Poppin' Daddies

Sort by Time - first and last?

First: Sound Effects - Bombs
Last: Athens 10-2-98 Part 1 - Galactic w/ Karl Denson (part 1 us 1:00:25, part 2 is 50:13 if you want to count the whole concert)

Sort by Album - first and last?

First: 69 Love Songs Volume 1 - Magnetic Fields
Last: Yellow Submarine - The Beatles

Top 25 Most Played Songs:
* Laura - Scissor Sisters
* Hell - Tiger Lillies
* Space Oddity - David Bowie
* The Movies - Earlimart
* Barrel of a Gun - Guster
* Annie Waits - Ben Folds
* Hearts Are Open Graves - Elysian Fields
* Dream On - Aerosmith
* Nothing Better - The Postal Service
* Kevin and G-d - Radio Free Vestibule
* Chalk Dust Torture - Phish
* Return to Oz - Scissor Sisters
* Cold Cold Ground - Tom Waits
* Clint Eastwood - Gorillaz
* Thunder Road - Bruce Springsteen
* I'll Be Anything You Want - Melissa Auf der Maur
* Urami Bushi - Meiko Kaji
* Goodnight Moon - Shivaree
* Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood - Santa Esmeralda
* Battle Without Honor or Humanity - Hotei Tomoyasu
* Malaguena Salerosa - Chingon
* Lullabye (Goodnight, My Angel) - Billy Joel
* ...Said Sadly - Smashing Pumpkins
* Harder to Breathe - Maroon 5
* It Can't Come Quickly Enough - Scissor Sisters

Ten Most Recently Played:
* The Doom Song - Invader Zim
* Summertime Killer - Luis. E. Bacalov
* Dark as a Dungeon - Johnny Cash
* Come Live With Me - Stacey Kent
* Two Girls - Paranoid Social Club
* Kilburn High Road - Flogging Molly
* I Am Alone - Tsunami Bomb
* Zak and Sara - Ben Folds
* Every Ship Must Sail Away - Blue Merle
* Ragg Mopp - The Ames Brothers

Find "sex," how many songs show up?: 26 (Thank you, Sex Pistols and Cheap Sex)
Find "death," how many songs show up?: 35
Find "love," how many songs show up?: 258

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
(then post this in your LJ and find out what my first thought would be)

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Thursday, February 17th, 2005
8:17 pm
Thursday, Feb. 17. 2:25 pm. I am currently trapped in a small dark room underneath the stage. I've been down here for about 10 minutes so far today (I was upstairs for the other hour and a half today), but was here for quite some time yesterday, too. That's right, folks, it's tech time! I'm the deck captain on this show, which is a glorified term meaning "grunt." My job during the show is to turn a giant heavy pipe which, in turn, turns the turntable on the stage (I don't think I used the word turn enough in this sentence yet, so I'm going to say turn a few more times: turn, turn, turn), and to open and close some doors and a drawer that contains a person. But for the doors and the drawer, I get to come out of this hole-pit and go backstage. Freedom!

Thus far, tech has been relatively uneventful and smooth as far as I can tell, but, being trapped in a hole, it's hard to tell. Can't hear or see anything going on, and the stage manager does not often talk to me. Just when it's time for me to do something. Yet, I am rather tired and sore. This could be due to being here for not quite nine and a half hours yesterday, the majority of which was spent wrestling with a giant pole (yes, I know that sounds wrong. There, I just saved you the trouble), and the last hour was spent lugging walls and such around. The beginning of today was also spent lugging walls around, but there were more people here today than last night, so while we were still only two to a wall, there were fewer walls each. The other reason I may be tired could be due to going to sleep around 5 am and getting up a little after 10.

I had a lovely time in NY, as always, which, as always, made me wish I lived and worked up there. But alas, I can't get an apt until I get a job, and I can't get a job until I get an apt. It's a vicious circle. It just keeps going and going. That's what makes it vicious. And a circle. (And if you know what that's from, you get bonus points. And maybe a prize!!!) Also, as always, many thanks to blackdeathdenia and scrogers, but even more so this time for driving me to/from the airport (Nico, you are teh awesome). At any rate, in general a good time was had - Friday geekdom was indulged, Saturday dumspirospero and I went into the city, grabbed a bite, and saw The Aviator. Good lord, I have no idea why that film has 11 nominations. Mr. Scorsese, please learn to step back and let the editor do his/her job. And please stop casting Mr. DiCrapio. K, thanks, bye. We also stopped by the Virgin Megastore, since we had some time to kill before the movie, which resulted in me buying copies of Bubba Ho-tep and In the Mouth of Madness. Sunday was spent hanging out with Nico and Steve, and we, along with the Amy-Gretchen unit, went to dinner at the Bayou. While we were there, Becky called, so once we got back to Hill House, she came down and hung out, and we broke out the digicams and acted foolish and took many pictures, pretending we were taking those drunken Friendster shots. On Monday I went to Joe's class with Nico, and afterwards I hung out with cellis for a while. She introduced me to Firefly. I must see more of it (we only watched the pilot). Later, brassidiot and I got food from the Argonaut delivered, since everywhere else would've been closed, and everyone else had already eaten. Tuesday, however, I got up, borrowed some books and Neverwhere from Amanda, then went into town with Becky and Nehemiah, where Becky got passport photos and we all got lunch at Pete's. Like I said, in general, a good time. Just wish I had been able to see more people, and that I had had longer up there, and that I lived and worked there. It's a vicious circle. It just keeps going and going. That's what makes it vicious. And a circle. (Thought I'd share that with you all again).

It's almost 5 now. I've spent most of today backstage rather than in the hole. Quite different from yesterday. Also means I haven't been where my computer is. I've been reading Musashi instead. I wish this theatre had wireless, like some others do. Hell, I wish I had any connection at all whilst in this hole. I also wish my car was alive again. Must call the shop tomorrow and see how things are going.

I seem to make either no posts, pointless meme posts, or rambling long posts that also have no point and that nobody reads. Why do I suck at life? (These points are not related). I think I'll go back to reading, now.


I'm home now. It's only a quarter past 8. This is highly unexpected, as I thought tech was going until 10 again tonight. But they had given me the wrong schedule, and it was only going until 7. Tomorrow it'll be until 8. Then the real problem day comes...have to be there at like 7:30 am on Saturday. That is an ungodly hour and should be destroyed.

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Monday, February 14th, 2005
12:21 pm - Valentine's Day
Being alone on Valentine's Day isn't really anything new for me...apart from the past three years, it's always been the case. It's also not so much the being alone on this particular day, just the fact that the rest of the world drives that point home today; I actually think it's a pretty stupid "holiday." If you can't show your love and devotion the rest of the year, you've got a problem (granted, if you're actually with someone on Valentine's Day, it does make a good excuse to go out somewhere...not that you need one).

That being said, and all bitterness aside...

Happy Valentines Day to those who are special to me!Collapse )

current mood: Guess!

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Sunday, February 13th, 2005
3:33 am - What do we think, children?
Jung Explorer Test
Actualized type: ISTJ
(who you are)
ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population.
Preferred type: ESFJ
(who you prefer to be)
ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of harmony. Outstanding host or hostesses. 12.3% of total population.
Attraction type: ISTJ
(who you are attracted to)
ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population.

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And now, sleep. More some other time.

current mood: Tired, but good

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